the little girl..

2005-10-30T14:51:00.000+08:00

wrapping up..

leaving..

having started afresh..

here's a new change coming soon..

2005-10-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

his birthday. 2 months. so much has happended

2005-09-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

that world hates me. he hates me. i hate myself. Why must it be..

2005-09-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

j u s t . k e e p . g o i n g .

moving on..

2005-09-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

what went wrong? why did things have to turn out like this.

9/2/2005
3:10:59 AM
Ma-ia-hii Ma-ia-huu Ma-ia-hoo Ma-ia-haha ~~!!!

really...the happiest moment this yr ...was seeing u smile n putting toge yr hands clap clap ..singing u yr bd song...that image still so strong in my mind.. i really loved u ...i still do..nites

2005-09-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

fresh start.. but its gone even b4 u knew it..

i'm so pissed. so hurt. so stupid.

i'm nt gng to be ur domestic pet.

yes it's my blardee fault to have chosen to study.

the u now has become a totally insensitive stranger where was the once sweet person gone?

i have nothing more to say. no more future to consider with u. no more.

2005-08-30T17:50:00.000+08:00

Amanda Perez - Angel.

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries
God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like
I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God

2005-08-25T02:26:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling very empty.

the 2 yrs + of my life has jus disappeared.

v.Sad.. I broke my heart and his heart. I wish things wouldn't be like this.

2005-08-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

i wanna do the right thing.

2005-08-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

this matter's tearin me apart.

totally drained..

wish things didnt had to go this way..

2005-08-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

. j u s t . k e e p . g o i n g .

one of the biggest decision in life..

Once i make that choice..
there's no looking back.. no regrets..

I hope i can live with that decision.

2005-08-14T04:31:00.000+08:00

i'm still up.. partly becuz i slept too muchin the day.. partly there's alot on my mind..

2005-08-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

he msg me saying he missed his flight.. will be back only tml. :(

2005-08-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

jin's comin home today~!

2005-08-10T03:05:00.000+08:00

i finished watched my boyfriend's type B. gosh! they're such a cute couple, makes u almost wanna fall in love all over again.. jus almost..

if only the guy's daniel wu or stephen fung or jus some cute adorable guy..

He must have: - (preferences stays with daniel wu.. or stephen)
-soulful eyes
-nice physique
-warm & sincere
-doesnt need to drive a car etc..

my ceilin's rumblin again.. *arrgh*

2005-08-07T17:11:00.000+08:00

thinkin bout 2 stuffs:
- relationship ..
- new layout .. (Webbie + Blog + mini gallery)

2005-08-07T15:14:00.000+08:00

this's so funny..

Here's the conversation bout our timetables..

marie says: i go do one soft copy when everything fionalised

i am a bo hiew er aka Edmund says: fionalised

i am a bo hiew er aka Edmund says: lol

i am a bo hiew er aka Edmund says: wahahah

i am a bo hiew er aka Edmund says: you gonna make them into an empty headed big breasted actress?

gosh.. this really cracked us up for a while..

2005-08-07T12:41:00.000+08:00

Your body is your temple.

What you read, listen to and watch will significantly impact your success or failure. The subconscious mind feeds upon random thoughts. You can think your way into success or failure depending largely on what you allow into your mind. Likewise, our bodies will respond to what we eat, drink or otherwise ingest. Like our minds, our bodies, if not exercised regularly will operate at less than peak efficiency. No amount of money or fame can compensate for poor mental or physical health. How will you improve your temple in the future?

2005-08-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hey guys and girls, thnx for the birthday wishes.. really appreciated you ppl for rememberin!

2005-08-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

sick..

guess it's my period too makin me feel so lousy..

i puked contents of dinner..

hope can still survive the 3 hrs of rugby tml..

anyway was real nice to see eil and mz~ yea will prolly get her a mouse for her 21st birthday i dunnoe wad else to get for her.

arrgh~ headache..

2005-07-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

cant think of anything to get..

2005-07-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

i have a weak stomach.. legs numb man..

2005-07-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

yawn..

2005-07-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna miss those who were from my grp in the camp.

2005-07-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

something's jus not rite. i wish he's more involved..

2005-07-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

i met a fucktard 'friend' today. (dun mind my language, i'm usually much nicer..)

wan smething more crude?
http://rockson.blogspot.com/2005/07/nkf-boss-got-cheebye-12-months-bonus.html

reminds me of pok pok, yes BEN.

2005-07-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

current pondered thought number 1: is originality is dying out?

current porndered thought: sin city's miho(aoki) .. she looked gd

current pouring thoughts: NIE NIE.. PE PE..

most recent problematic thought(s): i'm fat.. parents gettin oldder.. $ not's spinning out fast enough.. i hate to run..

2005-07-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

no more bad hair days.. hooray too.. blardee waste of money though..

2005-07-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

i have a bad hair day everyday.. hooray~

2005-07-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

I still owe the library a book.

Meanwhile.. havin a headache and somewhat quite feverish..

2005-07-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

whole week at ecp sailin centre..
profound respect for kids (&their parents) that take up sailin.. its so harsh!

things i did while i was there..
-this section is removed!!!

not bad for a week off from school.. totally enjoying it..

2005-07-03T11:13:00.000+08:00

are u an exhibitionist?
does havin a blog constitute you as one mentioned above.

depends on what you want to rave about.

someday i wake up wishin i was an underwear model. Workin with bare essentials..

if that ever happens, i would polish the title "Exhibitionist" with my sponsored panties or bra paddings. *giggle*

2005-07-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

i'm fascinated by this xiaxue craze. she's loud, freakin crude/rude, and totally so self-centered.. and some even "worship" her, religiously readin her entries.

wasted 1 min of my time glancin thru much thrash.. and another for postin this..

still havin a NICE headache..

nite..

2005-07-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

signed the bond

family day

went relative's hse - so nice; ate alot fish ball *bleh*

fed neighbour's dog - poor dog famished; steven & family out for vacation

havin headache..

stomach's upset - the fishballs?

left 6 more "steroid" pills - jus 3 more days to finish!

the madness saga of mic aint over yet - zz, pls be sane not sorry..

heck.. i'm still packin my clothes.. ..

2005-06-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

beginnin to be worried.

-outbreak rashes
-frequent eye infections (mild though, had one again today.. see my left eyeand u will see it's swollen)

went doc.. given some medications..
-prednisolone.. i dun really quiite like the name and i have to finish the entire course..

its not an antibotic.. sounds like some high and mighty drug though..

Hope it works..

2005-06-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

Somewhat a perfectly sweet song

Kiss Me

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

[Chorus:]
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

[Chorus (repeat)]

2005-06-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

my venus fly trap died.

2005-06-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

let's see..

1. ahhh - the mad rush day before we left

inform parents about last last min change and early departure.. (they gave me the 0.O look)
went to settle nie stuffs
school bball, swimming and form to leave etc..
pack my bag
pack his bag (zzz)

only item not done: didnt get anything for arpidet

2. fun - sleep, massage, eat

yeah that's all i did.. only bought a couple of hp straps as for shopping..

3. getting rdy for sch

zzz.. sian
zzz... sian

things that need to be done:
- pack room
- pack clothes
- go run
- go swim
- go lose some blardeee weight.. (zzz, +3 kg )

*hope the "poodle"/"doll" look is in..*

2005-06-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

am lookin for "Boston Legal" series.

let me know if u find any places selllin.

2005-06-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

heartpain... lost my favourite pinky postpet handphone pouch with my keys on them.

2005-06-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

sore-eyed- must be some bug in the air these days watery eyed now......

NIE - i'm excited but will miss that person called CHOO CHOO MILK.

that someonne called CHOO CHOO MILK commented i'm a 1 sentence blogger.. hoho ^^

tht makes 4 sentences including this!

2005-05-25T22:01:00.000+08:00

dotaaaaaa... I LOVE TECHIEEEEEEEE... I M GINNIE!!!!!!

2005-05-15T13:06:00.000+08:00

hee! so cute rite

2005-05-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

i nuan-ed the whole day away..

2005-05-08T18:02:00.000+08:00

snoozee sunday morning.. watched movies all afternoon.

ate the left over chips, gummy, "the incredibles' " chocolate and butter cookies, cherry tomatoes, chocolate mini pancakes and sunkist's aloe lemon juice..

pamper pamper~ oh pamper me silly..

2005-05-02T14:52:00.000+08:00

Mz asked me if i want to join her in her company..

Dilemma..

If i werent in teachin yet, i would have said yes immediately.

1. Quit teachin and go back to IT line be my lil' programmer analyst again?
2. Reject offer stay in teachin and pray i pass PPT and go on NIE?

- Peace out -

2005-05-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

It was coming to 3 am this morning, was playing 3 corr with lex they all. Just as I was talkin to alfie, my phone "rang".

Who would have called or msged me so late? and why was the tone so funny? and is these sounds coming from the phone?

No one called or msged or was it an alarm tone.
The tone was a moaning sound.
It was the phone making the sounds!... on its own..

Totally am freaked out; jumped into bed complained to jin; switched off the phone(thank god, no more sounds thereafter).

Spooky.. i was so spooked..

2005-04-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

stephanie's going to be voted out of "Survivor: Palau" tonight. :~(

2005-04-23T17:59:00.000+08:00

everyone's turning 21! how exciting.. prolly will jus have a quiet 21..

lost weight... 52kg (^^)
tanned...
no voice...

xiung, my bestest swim instructor fren.. thank the lord for his guidance.

lesson observation, next monday.

2005-04-02T13:41:00.000+08:00

kids are between adorable and horrible.

2005-03-20T09:21:00.000+08:00

oh god i'm feel like slappin some ppl again..

2005-03-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

mois last week of holiday left.. :)

2005-03-06T07:15:00.000+08:00

wasabi seaweed(mini snack).. tomatoes.. bread.. baked beans and a hard boiled egg. <- breakfast for today

and kev said i was anorexic.

2005-03-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

Josaiah - a v.creative guy he's appearin on 8tv! (n/a in sg)
http://www.nestle.com.my/Nescafe/KickStart/Participants/Dossier/josaiah.htm

pic there looks crappy prefer his pic on frenster.. lol
Dude.. All the VERY BEST!

2005-03-01T02:09:00.000+08:00

653 mails.. (not spams).. forwarded emails from frenz ..

late resolution
+ must see my emails more frequently...

2005-02-22T14:49:00.000+08:00

Sun's up.. gng for swim.

2005-02-21T09:19:00.000+08:00

Had a nitemare couldnt sleep since then.. stayed up all nite to finish the template..

template's 80% done.. however the followin still needs to be done..
1. comments
2. links
3. archieves
4. fanciful stuffs (cursors etc..)

Sianz~ think i will edit in a few more yrs..

zzz late for breakfast with alfie.. he's prolly asleep.. msged him earlier but ddint get any response.

I'll go wreck my fridge now..

2005-02-21T01:54:00.000+08:00

Changin blog template *seriously*

2005-02-20T09:44:00.000+08:00

+ vomit/puke..

2005-02-20T09:40:00.000+08:00

I just feel like slappin some people today. Don't ask me why.

2005-02-16T04:22:00.000+08:00

solve bin problem.. gd riddance.. hardly home, hardly have time.. can finally finish some bloody stuff pile up over the months.

2005-02-16T03:21:00.000+08:00

new book.. Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper..

"If you use one of ur children to save the life of another, are you being a good mother - or a very bad one?"